A mothers' love

A lot of people refer to women's hearts and actions as a mothers' touch and that women naturally have that instinct.  However, I have seen enough to prove that not all women have a mothers' touch.  I am so baffled at the women who have children and do not care about them.  Sure everyone has a story and I do not know all the details, just what is passed on through progress notes and report, but come on.  If you have a child, they become your priority.  Why would you not call and check up on them?

A recent situation with a baby has really had me excited to get a foster care license.  I wish I had one now because I would bring this little nugget home next week.  He is a newborn and has nowhere to go because mom had him and hasn't been back since.  He is perfect.  No one has really held him a lot or spoiled him so he barely cries.  He eats, sleeps, poops, and pees.  That is it.  Who could abandon that?  The other night we watched NY Med and he just stared at me and smiled.  It truly gave me baby fever.  I could not stop snuggling him.  I made sure to tell him how cute he was all night, how much I had fallen in love with him, and that he will always be in someones thoughts and prayers because I will never forget him.

Nights like these make me never want to leave pediatrics because of the joy and happiness I have looking down at them.  24 hours later it makes me upset and second guessing if I could do this every day of my life for the next 40 or so years.  Nursing is a tough profession and not all people respect it, they think its just 3 12 hour shifts and 4 days off.  Nursing is constant.  24-7.  I have thought about my lil nugget everyday that I have been off this week.  I worry.  I often think.  What if?  Why?  How?

I guess that is just a mothers' love instinct that I was born with and I am so happy to be able to share it with those who do not experience it.